“What a year!” This is what I thought to myself when I watched the sky light up at midnight with the flashes of people’s own fireworks from the balcony friends house in Budapest. 2011 has been the biggest year of my life. I graduated high school, I’m now an adult, and there’s a new beginning to my life. I’m living it up in the real world, and although I now understand why people say that school was a place of haven for them, I feel like my life and my destiny is totally in my own control. And yes, times can get stressful and difficult. I don’t know what I’ll be doing next week, next month, and no clue where or what the hell I’ll be doing next new year! But I feel like I am living my life just how I want it to be and there is hardly anything I would change. I can see that the people in my circle of life realize my ambitions and dreams for my life, and they respect me for that. I feel as I am not only helping myself, but slowly I’m starting to inspire others and having a positive effect on their lives.
At the same time, I feel really grateful for my family who are all healthy and well, I love my friends, I’m so appreciative of the opportunities I have been given in my life like living in a different culture and being born and raised in such a supportive environment. People can say that I’m so lucky to have this, but I think it’s only because I’ve chosen to embrace each opportunity I was given. There were times this year where I could of just ignored my family, given up on football, let someone else make my choices for me, and spend all my time playing video games, watching movies and ignoring the chances to get ahead. But I’m 18, it’s 2012 now, I’ve experienced things that people twice my age could only sit and dream of and I have my whole life ahead of me. All I see right now is a life filled with happiness, laughter and pride. But I knock on wood for all that I’ve written here..my life is great, but I fear things can change for the worst at any moment and that’s why my actions have to be careful at times so I don’t destroy the good things in my life. But whatever, I’m young, I’m wild and I’m free (Snoop Dogg/Wiz Khalifa) and it’s time to live life fearless and enjoy these 365 days. 2012 will be an even bigger year in my life.
2011 was supposed to be the year I would make it into a pro football club, and although I haven’t technically made it yet, there have been contracts talked about and performances have been good enough to say that I’m at the standard professional football requires. Once I sign that contract and play first team football professionally somewhere, I don’t think there is anything in the world that could make me more proud of myself. From nothing to something just sums up my footballing story. In 2012, the dream I chased will become true reality. I hope that inspires you all to go for your own dreams, I only wish anyone reading this success and happiness.
And it’s only upwards and onwards here. My game is now getting pacier, I am making passes quicker, thinking quicker, doing things in one touch and two touch and learning/applying from the subtle moves of some of the best teams in England and the world. That stems from experiencing Scotland and from Moses’ training which taught me to do things quickly.
So I’m more confident, always learning and always striving for more than my teammates.
No news right now on any new trials, opportunities or anything. Have to finish UCAS applications and start on some new apps for other uni’s so I can just get them sorted now and not keep worrying about them a few months down the line. I think my chances of getting into Erasmus Rotterdam are good as they asked me to send in certified copies of my diploma and passport however, my motivation for going to uni is not as high as it was a few months ago. Things always change though so gotta do them regardless of how I feel right now.
I Was traveling for more than two days this week and unfortunately new years got the better of me today.. not the best first day to the year, but I know exactly when I should celebrate and when I shouldn’t, 2011 was a great year and you have to celebrate your successes. Therefore I’m exempt of finishing the hours I set. 9.5/20 I completed this week. Next week will be a full 20 hours. Will enter the third week of going to the gym and I will perhaps try go three or four times since I have a full week in Budapest now. I actually really like going to the gym, with friends it’s sort of relaxing and fun. Haven’t seen much in terms of muscle development yet, but over the coming weeks and the next 10 – 20 sessions I think we will see noticeable improvement, although have to read a bit more about working out because I still really don’t know what I’m doing.